The things that matter so much to you when your are young are so different than the things that matter when you are old, if only I could have realized that then.
Then- .I had a thousand friends
Now- I am lucky if I have one.
Then- trying on different outfits that made me look thin (yet I was thin Then)
Now- trying to find something that even fits (now I am Fat)
Then- experimenting with different colors on my hair
Now- Trying to find a good hair color that covers all the grey
Then- struggling with my homework
Now- struggling with life, death,bills, kids....etc
Then - deciding what friend to go out with on friday night
Now- deciding which one of my friends is still alive and if we're even friends still
Then- figuring out how to cut class
Now figuring out how to cut costs
Then- Government class and understanding tax's and voting ....
Now -Federal & state taxes and why we have to pay so much to own things!
Then- paying my brothers to do my chores so I could go out
Now- missing my brothers and appreciating all the things they did for me
Then - Taking my Mother for granted, never spending time with her and wondering why she was always bitching at me.
Now- Realizing how much my mother did for me, wanting and wishing I could spend time with her, noticing how she was always right!
Then- dreading family outings
Now- wishing my family was more than just a memory
Where is the life that I recognize.... Gone away...